Monday, January 11, 2010

2010! Welcome!

Hi All! So yes, life is a bit crazy! We all have very busy days! But I am working very hard on a few things.

1. My New Years Resolution. I'll soon announce what it is. But it's Life Challenging to say the least! Much harder than Surfing! LOL!

2. Something my husband has encouraged me to do. Write a book. I may keep this to myself, but others have encouraged me to publish it. Only time and God will tell me what to do.

3. For now life is good.

For the time being, I cannot put anymore pictures up. I'm sorry. They will be up when the time is permitted. For privacy sake I must refrain. But I can tell you of our great adventures! I can paint the pictures with word.

Gotta run.

Will write soon

Saturday, March 21, 2009

updates

I will be updating the pics soon! I'm just to tired right now!

Bri

Living in a nightmare! Please Pray!

Hi all. I have been so busy lately that I have not written. And quite honestly, I've been a little choosy about what I do write these days. But this story needs to be told. I can only pray that God is not too busy to hear me. And thank you for taking the time to read this!

Shocked,
Bri

Have you ever thought to yourself, This is such a nightmare and wonder when you are going to wake up and life gets back to what you'd call normal? Have you ever had one of those dreams where you knew it was a dream but couldn't wake and were so glad when you did? Have you out of the blue had your whole entire world turned upide down that you just cried out, God where are You?

I am walking in a nightmare. It's one I can't wake up from. In fact I pray all the time I wish I could. When I try to sleep, my sleep becomes restless filled with more dreams of this nightmare that is actually a reality now. So my brain refuses to sleep now. I am literally so exhausted my eyes burn and I just want one minute of a peaceful rest. But that moment may be months away now.

Let me explain. My ex, Isabella's father, has decided he does not want to pay child support or help out with daycare, medical, etc. So he's decided to throw several horrible false accusations against me and my character. Things I detest, he says I did/do. But the low down part about this is he filed this all with the court. He presented things that NEVER even happened. And the worse part, is because he has absolutely no medical rights to his daughter (long story but you'd agree after hearing this he shouldn't have ANY rights!), he actually convinced Isabella's doctor to turn me into CPS for fear of the safety and health of Isabella. I am so furious! The doctor I took my daughter to, the doctor that I trusted the care of my baby girl to, the doctor that told me for several months she does know something is wrong with Isabella, she even ordered several tests, had her admitted, and sent to the ER on HER orders, is now trying to say nothing was wrong with her and that I was making up her being sick. HOW DARE SHE! This man, her father a chronic alcoholic, liar, etc, convinced her, that she was better off out of my custody. A man who he himself claims he wants full custody yet never tried once to see her with the supervisor he made me pay for so he could see her. It's not about Isabella to him, though he claims it is, it's about the money. He called her doctor several times leaving absurd messages that apparently warrented the call to CPS against me. Back in the beginning of Feb. I changed doctors. My last conversation with this doctor is that Isabella was finally doing better and getting her appetite back! But I also had that feeling that I needed to switch doctors. One to whom her father could NOT manipulate. But it was too late. I don't know if it was her pride or what, but she decided a month later, the beginning of this month to turn me in for several untrue accusations.

Both my parents and Lee can and will testify to how sick Isabella was. That I was not making it up. Even her charts all state that she was yet no one knew why. My faith in her and Marybridge deteriorated rapidly. It wasn't until I went to children's that I had a peace of mind. They took me seriously. Enough to put tubes in and take out her atnoids. She had that surgery done this week. They said they were inflamed and swollen. So I was right! Something was wrong!
What angers me is that while I was at Isabella's doctor last week her father called there while I was there and said he was my "husband and even said his last name was the same as mine!" He told two of the nurses that! I was furious!! He was at it again! So I went to the court that day to get a copy of the parenting plan that states he has no medical rights and can't have any info for them. However, what I found put me into this nightmare.

He filed a court order against me. However, I wasn't sure the severity of it at the time. I didn't even know he'd convinced the doctor Isabella was "unsafe" with me! It wasn't until this Wednesday I did. In his final statement he states he is concerned for the health and safety of Isabella and even the doctors are to the point of turning me into CPS. I was shaking I was so angry. First how would he know and I not know? I had no clue. Talk about being blind sided!

I just moved in a little over a month ago so it's not like everything is perfect but now on top of stressing about things, I have to have it pretty much foster care perfect every day! I was told one dish in the sink and they can write you up as a filthy kitchen! Or toys on the floor and the house itself is filthy! Now Lee is OCD about cleaning house but he said even this is rediculous! The job of these people is to take the children away no matter what! It's their job, how they make their money so they have to meet their quota. And ironically most of the children that are taken away are like me. A case where the other parent is angry! So they give false accusations! This ruins the lives of the children.
I am now being told that I have NO rights in WA! That at any time they can and will interigate my children into saying whatever they want them to say for the court against us! Where is the right to protect your children? They are minors! They are babies! Because of this jerk and this doctor who shouldn't have her license (seriously, she never once thought to look up his record, which if you go to WA Court search and put it in there are Infractions and criminal infractions from 94-08! All alcohol and drugs!) So she seriously wants Isabella taken from a loving home, of a mommy and lee is the only daddy she knows and her sister and brother and be put into his care? Was she seriously even awake? Did she not for one minute think of the consequences of her actions? Seriously! My other 2 are now in jepordy as well, thanks to her, and they are so tramatized from my divorce and whatnot this can emotionally kill them! They are only 5 and 7! My son is so afraid he got himself sick! Literally. He is throwing up and running a temp of 105. My daughter refuses to leave my side now. All I can keep telling them is that mommy loves them and I will try to be there for them! I keep telling them don't EVER answer the door or look through te blinds. And also NEVER to talk to any strangers and to tell them to tell whoever tries to get them to talk to say I want my mommy. And just keep saying that! How do you tell your children they can be taken away for something that someone else twists their words about. They are 5 and 7! And the worse part is because Michael now goes to a public school they have the right to interigate him there! If he was at a private school they couldn't! WA state laws are so twisted! So now I am worried sick about all 3 of my kids. This will hurt them forever!

I asked her when and why. She was extemely vague. But as Lee says he was there when she said something was wrong. And why just now is she doing this? I believe it's because I switched doctors and practices! Whatever it takes I will not rest if something happens to my babies! They are my life! I love my children and would give my life for them! I am so angry because I vowed to never let anything bad happen to them and because of Isabella's father and the doctor they may get taken away! But it won't be for long! Because I can promise you this! If anything happens to any of them I will sue the doctor and her father! I will make sure she understands the reprocusions of hurting children! She is hurting 3 innocent children! I don't have the money for a lawyer, but I will find it somehow! I will not rest until I have them all safe in my house far far away from her malpractice and Isabella's father! I asked her doctor how can a parent trust to go to a doctor when their child is very sick if they turn them in for caring about their child? She had no real answers. I asked her if it's even smart to trust a doctor if they all practice medicine as she has? Again nothing. I told her I as Isabella's mother was concerned for the health of my child. I just wanted real answers as to why she was so sick! I learned that at EVERY doctor APPT no matter what kind you ask for the full report before leaving. Not some summary. Because they can and do destroy records to cover their butt! So now I am fighting losing not only my baby, but my other 2. And they are so fragile! It will liteally kill them emotionally, and on those grounds alone there is a HUGE lawsuit! But at this time, I need prayer! We need prayer! Those kids need so much extra love and attention especially now, because now I don't know when the last time I will see them is. I don't know if the last time I drop my son off to school if I won't see him again. So I am scared to death. I sob at night because I can't ever let my children see how scared I truly am! I don't sleep. Every noise outside now scares me. I am afraid to take them anywhere for the fact that we can be followed and taken from me. There were 2 times they were missing. Mikey was literally taken in Disneyland when he was 3. They have a great staff for getting him back, but let me assure you ALWAYS, ALWAYS keep an updated pic of your children with you at all times! They said it's best to have it taken monthly and just keep that in with you, with their name, age, height and weight on it! And the other time when Alexis was missing at a park in Sacramento when I was with a good friend. He found her after us looking everywhere and shouting for her. Long story but even that drove the fear of fatherhood into him he said! It literally does. When you no longer have your children and you can't protect them, the world stops, you can't breath and all you can think about is them. What's happening to them? Are they OK? Will I ever see them again? If so will they be alive? My scary thought is I know my children all 3 of them won't be able to handle being out of mommy's home even for a day! All I can see is their scared faces as I kissed them goodnight! How is it that a child, so young has to be so scared? This is all because of the doctor's call about things that weren't true!!

So now as I try to sleep, I can't. I walk around the house in a daze still cleaning making sure everything is perfect. I've checked on them several times as they've all cried out in their sleep once already tonight! I keep making sure they are safe in their beds! I now can't imagine what it must feel like to have your child taken from you without notice! I never know! Where is God now? Please someone tell me. Because I keep trusting Him and this happens. I keep thinking that in faith the doctor will retract her accusations as well as Isabella's dad. But I am also not stupid. So I sit here with tears, crying out to God to protect us. Help us. And to put complete blinders on the people that work for CPS, that the case is "lost!" At this point my parents said I need as much prayer as possible. Prayer for peace and protection for the children and I! Because if they see how scared I am, they will get even more so! So please, please, please, please pray God intervenes! I asked my mom if it was OK that to pray that God punishes her father, but I guess there are no real answers!

Anyhow, I am completely shocked and now yet again I am at the mercy of God! I pray someday soon God hears my cries!

In Agony,

Bri

Thursday, July 3, 2008

Lovin Life and my Folks

Good Morning! Isn't today a wonderful day?! Well I think so! There is so much to be grateful for! Things are going ok! And I have my parents to help me with the children! I couldn't do it without them! Next year The older two will be in school, but Izzy will only be a year! There will come a day when they all will be, but until then, my folks are helping me so I can get through school, and make a new life for us! So, I just wanted to say thanks to them and say how much I truly appreciate them and love them! I hope that I will be as loving and compassionate to my children as my parents are to me and my brother and sisters!

Well, Gotta run!

Loving Life!

BTW, What Happens in Vegas! Great Movie, tons of laughs! I would buy it!

Bri

Life is so amazing

So just a quick note! The summer is flying by! I am done with Biology and am back to Chem for July! I loved Bio! Chem is a headache! Sigh! So. . . I am a very lucky gal! I have recently engaged into a relationship that is pleaasing to God. We have a really open and honest relationship. He knows all about Izzy's father and I and what happened. It did take him a while to understand why I want to wait until I am married to have sex again! So instead of that we now read devotions together, as well as with the kids. We found a great church together, that we both love! It's been pretty amazing!! We have family game night at least 2ce a week! He has really gotten to love the kids and knows the worse of their behaviors and told me that because he is so in love with their mommy, he's not going anywhere. : ) He really adores Izzy and spoils her like his lil princess. He's hoping that her daddy will flake and not want her so all she'll know is him. LOL! Talk about becoming attached. Anyhow, I told him I want to still take things slow and wait til I am out of school to marry and whatnot. I don't want another repeat. Besides, I have to much to focus on right now! He understands! We just got back from camping in Eastern WA! It was adorable taking Bella fishing on the boat and stuff! We are heading to California in August! Yeah! Well better run! I'm so happy these days! I am glad we're doing things the right way. That was my downfall with Izzy's dad. I want God at the center of everything! So things really are different.



Lovin life,

Bri

Sunday, June 8, 2008

Life These Days

Hi! So life's suddenly gotten way more serious. I am now in summer school, and let me tell ya, it'll kick your butt, if you are not completely serious! I am meeting a ton of cool new people though!

So, things have been going good with us. Our 1 month anniversary from our first official date was yesterday! He even texted me to say happy 1 month! I've never had that, so it's really sweet! He came over Friday, and we watched Dan in Real Life! LOL! How real is that?! He also held Isabella and is falling in love with my little princess! At the same time she is really drawn to him! : ) Whenever we are around, she is now holding out her arms to him for him to take her! She is so very fascinated with him! And she doesn't really know any other man except my dad, because hers has been absent in her life since late December. He is now saying he wants to be a part of her life, but to me actions speak louder than words!

Yesterday, Mike went on his Royal Rangers drag race trip! He loved it! He got to drive a dragster and learn how to change the tire and work in the pit and stuff! So cool! I wish I could go! They even had a bon fire! The leaders were pretty cool! It is like boy scouts but with God as the center!

Alexis played soccer! It was so cold she just stood there. . . So she ended up in goal! LOL! She was better at that! After that we all went out for breakfast to a cute cafe in stadium district! Isabella loves french toast with syrup! LOL! Then Alexis went with Papa "grandpa" for a walk and to the library and Isabella, my mom and I went to Walmart to go shopping. Time to get stuff! LOL!

Then we came home and Izzy had tummy time, well she's learned to roll over, so she had rolling time! Then I picked up Mike from Life Christian and he and I went to Target for some other stuff! Then we came home and I studied! And because I am not feeling well these days, I went to bed early.

So today, is a study day cuz there is a HUGE test tomorrow! Yikes! Well, That's kinda our life these days. Only one more week of Soccer, then baseball season is upon us! Yeah! And Izzy's first swim lessons! HMM!

Well, better run, shower time and time to get ready for church!

Love this happy girl!

Bri

Sunday, June 1, 2008

Life Is Amazing

Hi! Life has been 100% amazing! I met a great guy and we've been having a ton of fun! Fun I haven't had in years! We've had some great laughs together and he loves all 3 of the kids! He doesn't have any of his own so Isabella is new to him! It's so cute seeing him with her and she has just been our lil entertainment! LOL! She is a riot!

She goes everywhere with us now! And let's see we are attending an awesome church in Seattle! And we both love it so that is a huge thing! And after we always try to go and do something new and different! Today he took us to have cupcakes and they were heavenly! We even got some for Michael and Alexis! We then went to Mexican right by his place off of stadium! Yummy! But we have a ton of plans for the summer! And we plan to take the children on many cool adventures! He even came to their soccer game yesterday! He's getting to do all the stuff a dad does! Then he Izzy and I went to a cool lil place in south tacoma to eat!

Right now They only know him as mommy's friend. I will keep it like that unless things get super serious! But we are taking it slow. But for now things are great! And he knows my boundaries. I am never going back down that road again until I am married! It will be tuff but that is what I feel is right!

Well better run! I am uploading the pics of Izzy and stuff!

Lovin Life,

Bri