I will be updating the pics soon! I'm just to tired right now!
Bri
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Living in a nightmare! Please Pray!
Hi all. I have been so busy lately that I have not written. And quite honestly, I've been a little choosy about what I do write these days. But this story needs to be told. I can only pray that God is not too busy to hear me. And thank you for taking the time to read this!
Shocked,
Bri
Have you ever thought to yourself, This is such a nightmare and wonder when you are going to wake up and life gets back to what you'd call normal? Have you ever had one of those dreams where you knew it was a dream but couldn't wake and were so glad when you did? Have you out of the blue had your whole entire world turned upide down that you just cried out, God where are You?
I am walking in a nightmare. It's one I can't wake up from. In fact I pray all the time I wish I could. When I try to sleep, my sleep becomes restless filled with more dreams of this nightmare that is actually a reality now. So my brain refuses to sleep now. I am literally so exhausted my eyes burn and I just want one minute of a peaceful rest. But that moment may be months away now.
Let me explain. My ex, Isabella's father, has decided he does not want to pay child support or help out with daycare, medical, etc. So he's decided to throw several horrible false accusations against me and my character. Things I detest, he says I did/do. But the low down part about this is he filed this all with the court. He presented things that NEVER even happened. And the worse part, is because he has absolutely no medical rights to his daughter (long story but you'd agree after hearing this he shouldn't have ANY rights!), he actually convinced Isabella's doctor to turn me into CPS for fear of the safety and health of Isabella. I am so furious! The doctor I took my daughter to, the doctor that I trusted the care of my baby girl to, the doctor that told me for several months she does know something is wrong with Isabella, she even ordered several tests, had her admitted, and sent to the ER on HER orders, is now trying to say nothing was wrong with her and that I was making up her being sick. HOW DARE SHE! This man, her father a chronic alcoholic, liar, etc, convinced her, that she was better off out of my custody. A man who he himself claims he wants full custody yet never tried once to see her with the supervisor he made me pay for so he could see her. It's not about Isabella to him, though he claims it is, it's about the money. He called her doctor several times leaving absurd messages that apparently warrented the call to CPS against me. Back in the beginning of Feb. I changed doctors. My last conversation with this doctor is that Isabella was finally doing better and getting her appetite back! But I also had that feeling that I needed to switch doctors. One to whom her father could NOT manipulate. But it was too late. I don't know if it was her pride or what, but she decided a month later, the beginning of this month to turn me in for several untrue accusations.
Both my parents and Lee can and will testify to how sick Isabella was. That I was not making it up. Even her charts all state that she was yet no one knew why. My faith in her and Marybridge deteriorated rapidly. It wasn't until I went to children's that I had a peace of mind. They took me seriously. Enough to put tubes in and take out her atnoids. She had that surgery done this week. They said they were inflamed and swollen. So I was right! Something was wrong!
What angers me is that while I was at Isabella's doctor last week her father called there while I was there and said he was my "husband and even said his last name was the same as mine!" He told two of the nurses that! I was furious!! He was at it again! So I went to the court that day to get a copy of the parenting plan that states he has no medical rights and can't have any info for them. However, what I found put me into this nightmare.
He filed a court order against me. However, I wasn't sure the severity of it at the time. I didn't even know he'd convinced the doctor Isabella was "unsafe" with me! It wasn't until this Wednesday I did. In his final statement he states he is concerned for the health and safety of Isabella and even the doctors are to the point of turning me into CPS. I was shaking I was so angry. First how would he know and I not know? I had no clue. Talk about being blind sided!
I just moved in a little over a month ago so it's not like everything is perfect but now on top of stressing about things, I have to have it pretty much foster care perfect every day! I was told one dish in the sink and they can write you up as a filthy kitchen! Or toys on the floor and the house itself is filthy! Now Lee is OCD about cleaning house but he said even this is rediculous! The job of these people is to take the children away no matter what! It's their job, how they make their money so they have to meet their quota. And ironically most of the children that are taken away are like me. A case where the other parent is angry! So they give false accusations! This ruins the lives of the children.
I am now being told that I have NO rights in WA! That at any time they can and will interigate my children into saying whatever they want them to say for the court against us! Where is the right to protect your children? They are minors! They are babies! Because of this jerk and this doctor who shouldn't have her license (seriously, she never once thought to look up his record, which if you go to WA Court search and put it in there are Infractions and criminal infractions from 94-08! All alcohol and drugs!) So she seriously wants Isabella taken from a loving home, of a mommy and lee is the only daddy she knows and her sister and brother and be put into his care? Was she seriously even awake? Did she not for one minute think of the consequences of her actions? Seriously! My other 2 are now in jepordy as well, thanks to her, and they are so tramatized from my divorce and whatnot this can emotionally kill them! They are only 5 and 7! My son is so afraid he got himself sick! Literally. He is throwing up and running a temp of 105. My daughter refuses to leave my side now. All I can keep telling them is that mommy loves them and I will try to be there for them! I keep telling them don't EVER answer the door or look through te blinds. And also NEVER to talk to any strangers and to tell them to tell whoever tries to get them to talk to say I want my mommy. And just keep saying that! How do you tell your children they can be taken away for something that someone else twists their words about. They are 5 and 7! And the worse part is because Michael now goes to a public school they have the right to interigate him there! If he was at a private school they couldn't! WA state laws are so twisted! So now I am worried sick about all 3 of my kids. This will hurt them forever!
I asked her when and why. She was extemely vague. But as Lee says he was there when she said something was wrong. And why just now is she doing this? I believe it's because I switched doctors and practices! Whatever it takes I will not rest if something happens to my babies! They are my life! I love my children and would give my life for them! I am so angry because I vowed to never let anything bad happen to them and because of Isabella's father and the doctor they may get taken away! But it won't be for long! Because I can promise you this! If anything happens to any of them I will sue the doctor and her father! I will make sure she understands the reprocusions of hurting children! She is hurting 3 innocent children! I don't have the money for a lawyer, but I will find it somehow! I will not rest until I have them all safe in my house far far away from her malpractice and Isabella's father! I asked her doctor how can a parent trust to go to a doctor when their child is very sick if they turn them in for caring about their child? She had no real answers. I asked her if it's even smart to trust a doctor if they all practice medicine as she has? Again nothing. I told her I as Isabella's mother was concerned for the health of my child. I just wanted real answers as to why she was so sick! I learned that at EVERY doctor APPT no matter what kind you ask for the full report before leaving. Not some summary. Because they can and do destroy records to cover their butt! So now I am fighting losing not only my baby, but my other 2. And they are so fragile! It will liteally kill them emotionally, and on those grounds alone there is a HUGE lawsuit! But at this time, I need prayer! We need prayer! Those kids need so much extra love and attention especially now, because now I don't know when the last time I will see them is. I don't know if the last time I drop my son off to school if I won't see him again. So I am scared to death. I sob at night because I can't ever let my children see how scared I truly am! I don't sleep. Every noise outside now scares me. I am afraid to take them anywhere for the fact that we can be followed and taken from me. There were 2 times they were missing. Mikey was literally taken in Disneyland when he was 3. They have a great staff for getting him back, but let me assure you ALWAYS, ALWAYS keep an updated pic of your children with you at all times! They said it's best to have it taken monthly and just keep that in with you, with their name, age, height and weight on it! And the other time when Alexis was missing at a park in Sacramento when I was with a good friend. He found her after us looking everywhere and shouting for her. Long story but even that drove the fear of fatherhood into him he said! It literally does. When you no longer have your children and you can't protect them, the world stops, you can't breath and all you can think about is them. What's happening to them? Are they OK? Will I ever see them again? If so will they be alive? My scary thought is I know my children all 3 of them won't be able to handle being out of mommy's home even for a day! All I can see is their scared faces as I kissed them goodnight! How is it that a child, so young has to be so scared? This is all because of the doctor's call about things that weren't true!!
So now as I try to sleep, I can't. I walk around the house in a daze still cleaning making sure everything is perfect. I've checked on them several times as they've all cried out in their sleep once already tonight! I keep making sure they are safe in their beds! I now can't imagine what it must feel like to have your child taken from you without notice! I never know! Where is God now? Please someone tell me. Because I keep trusting Him and this happens. I keep thinking that in faith the doctor will retract her accusations as well as Isabella's dad. But I am also not stupid. So I sit here with tears, crying out to God to protect us. Help us. And to put complete blinders on the people that work for CPS, that the case is "lost!" At this point my parents said I need as much prayer as possible. Prayer for peace and protection for the children and I! Because if they see how scared I am, they will get even more so! So please, please, please, please pray God intervenes! I asked my mom if it was OK that to pray that God punishes her father, but I guess there are no real answers!
Anyhow, I am completely shocked and now yet again I am at the mercy of God! I pray someday soon God hears my cries!
In Agony,
Bri
Shocked,
Bri
Have you ever thought to yourself, This is such a nightmare and wonder when you are going to wake up and life gets back to what you'd call normal? Have you ever had one of those dreams where you knew it was a dream but couldn't wake and were so glad when you did? Have you out of the blue had your whole entire world turned upide down that you just cried out, God where are You?
I am walking in a nightmare. It's one I can't wake up from. In fact I pray all the time I wish I could. When I try to sleep, my sleep becomes restless filled with more dreams of this nightmare that is actually a reality now. So my brain refuses to sleep now. I am literally so exhausted my eyes burn and I just want one minute of a peaceful rest. But that moment may be months away now.
Let me explain. My ex, Isabella's father, has decided he does not want to pay child support or help out with daycare, medical, etc. So he's decided to throw several horrible false accusations against me and my character. Things I detest, he says I did/do. But the low down part about this is he filed this all with the court. He presented things that NEVER even happened. And the worse part, is because he has absolutely no medical rights to his daughter (long story but you'd agree after hearing this he shouldn't have ANY rights!), he actually convinced Isabella's doctor to turn me into CPS for fear of the safety and health of Isabella. I am so furious! The doctor I took my daughter to, the doctor that I trusted the care of my baby girl to, the doctor that told me for several months she does know something is wrong with Isabella, she even ordered several tests, had her admitted, and sent to the ER on HER orders, is now trying to say nothing was wrong with her and that I was making up her being sick. HOW DARE SHE! This man, her father a chronic alcoholic, liar, etc, convinced her, that she was better off out of my custody. A man who he himself claims he wants full custody yet never tried once to see her with the supervisor he made me pay for so he could see her. It's not about Isabella to him, though he claims it is, it's about the money. He called her doctor several times leaving absurd messages that apparently warrented the call to CPS against me. Back in the beginning of Feb. I changed doctors. My last conversation with this doctor is that Isabella was finally doing better and getting her appetite back! But I also had that feeling that I needed to switch doctors. One to whom her father could NOT manipulate. But it was too late. I don't know if it was her pride or what, but she decided a month later, the beginning of this month to turn me in for several untrue accusations.
Both my parents and Lee can and will testify to how sick Isabella was. That I was not making it up. Even her charts all state that she was yet no one knew why. My faith in her and Marybridge deteriorated rapidly. It wasn't until I went to children's that I had a peace of mind. They took me seriously. Enough to put tubes in and take out her atnoids. She had that surgery done this week. They said they were inflamed and swollen. So I was right! Something was wrong!
What angers me is that while I was at Isabella's doctor last week her father called there while I was there and said he was my "husband and even said his last name was the same as mine!" He told two of the nurses that! I was furious!! He was at it again! So I went to the court that day to get a copy of the parenting plan that states he has no medical rights and can't have any info for them. However, what I found put me into this nightmare.
He filed a court order against me. However, I wasn't sure the severity of it at the time. I didn't even know he'd convinced the doctor Isabella was "unsafe" with me! It wasn't until this Wednesday I did. In his final statement he states he is concerned for the health and safety of Isabella and even the doctors are to the point of turning me into CPS. I was shaking I was so angry. First how would he know and I not know? I had no clue. Talk about being blind sided!
I just moved in a little over a month ago so it's not like everything is perfect but now on top of stressing about things, I have to have it pretty much foster care perfect every day! I was told one dish in the sink and they can write you up as a filthy kitchen! Or toys on the floor and the house itself is filthy! Now Lee is OCD about cleaning house but he said even this is rediculous! The job of these people is to take the children away no matter what! It's their job, how they make their money so they have to meet their quota. And ironically most of the children that are taken away are like me. A case where the other parent is angry! So they give false accusations! This ruins the lives of the children.
I am now being told that I have NO rights in WA! That at any time they can and will interigate my children into saying whatever they want them to say for the court against us! Where is the right to protect your children? They are minors! They are babies! Because of this jerk and this doctor who shouldn't have her license (seriously, she never once thought to look up his record, which if you go to WA Court search and put it in there are Infractions and criminal infractions from 94-08! All alcohol and drugs!) So she seriously wants Isabella taken from a loving home, of a mommy and lee is the only daddy she knows and her sister and brother and be put into his care? Was she seriously even awake? Did she not for one minute think of the consequences of her actions? Seriously! My other 2 are now in jepordy as well, thanks to her, and they are so tramatized from my divorce and whatnot this can emotionally kill them! They are only 5 and 7! My son is so afraid he got himself sick! Literally. He is throwing up and running a temp of 105. My daughter refuses to leave my side now. All I can keep telling them is that mommy loves them and I will try to be there for them! I keep telling them don't EVER answer the door or look through te blinds. And also NEVER to talk to any strangers and to tell them to tell whoever tries to get them to talk to say I want my mommy. And just keep saying that! How do you tell your children they can be taken away for something that someone else twists their words about. They are 5 and 7! And the worse part is because Michael now goes to a public school they have the right to interigate him there! If he was at a private school they couldn't! WA state laws are so twisted! So now I am worried sick about all 3 of my kids. This will hurt them forever!
I asked her when and why. She was extemely vague. But as Lee says he was there when she said something was wrong. And why just now is she doing this? I believe it's because I switched doctors and practices! Whatever it takes I will not rest if something happens to my babies! They are my life! I love my children and would give my life for them! I am so angry because I vowed to never let anything bad happen to them and because of Isabella's father and the doctor they may get taken away! But it won't be for long! Because I can promise you this! If anything happens to any of them I will sue the doctor and her father! I will make sure she understands the reprocusions of hurting children! She is hurting 3 innocent children! I don't have the money for a lawyer, but I will find it somehow! I will not rest until I have them all safe in my house far far away from her malpractice and Isabella's father! I asked her doctor how can a parent trust to go to a doctor when their child is very sick if they turn them in for caring about their child? She had no real answers. I asked her if it's even smart to trust a doctor if they all practice medicine as she has? Again nothing. I told her I as Isabella's mother was concerned for the health of my child. I just wanted real answers as to why she was so sick! I learned that at EVERY doctor APPT no matter what kind you ask for the full report before leaving. Not some summary. Because they can and do destroy records to cover their butt! So now I am fighting losing not only my baby, but my other 2. And they are so fragile! It will liteally kill them emotionally, and on those grounds alone there is a HUGE lawsuit! But at this time, I need prayer! We need prayer! Those kids need so much extra love and attention especially now, because now I don't know when the last time I will see them is. I don't know if the last time I drop my son off to school if I won't see him again. So I am scared to death. I sob at night because I can't ever let my children see how scared I truly am! I don't sleep. Every noise outside now scares me. I am afraid to take them anywhere for the fact that we can be followed and taken from me. There were 2 times they were missing. Mikey was literally taken in Disneyland when he was 3. They have a great staff for getting him back, but let me assure you ALWAYS, ALWAYS keep an updated pic of your children with you at all times! They said it's best to have it taken monthly and just keep that in with you, with their name, age, height and weight on it! And the other time when Alexis was missing at a park in Sacramento when I was with a good friend. He found her after us looking everywhere and shouting for her. Long story but even that drove the fear of fatherhood into him he said! It literally does. When you no longer have your children and you can't protect them, the world stops, you can't breath and all you can think about is them. What's happening to them? Are they OK? Will I ever see them again? If so will they be alive? My scary thought is I know my children all 3 of them won't be able to handle being out of mommy's home even for a day! All I can see is their scared faces as I kissed them goodnight! How is it that a child, so young has to be so scared? This is all because of the doctor's call about things that weren't true!!
So now as I try to sleep, I can't. I walk around the house in a daze still cleaning making sure everything is perfect. I've checked on them several times as they've all cried out in their sleep once already tonight! I keep making sure they are safe in their beds! I now can't imagine what it must feel like to have your child taken from you without notice! I never know! Where is God now? Please someone tell me. Because I keep trusting Him and this happens. I keep thinking that in faith the doctor will retract her accusations as well as Isabella's dad. But I am also not stupid. So I sit here with tears, crying out to God to protect us. Help us. And to put complete blinders on the people that work for CPS, that the case is "lost!" At this point my parents said I need as much prayer as possible. Prayer for peace and protection for the children and I! Because if they see how scared I am, they will get even more so! So please, please, please, please pray God intervenes! I asked my mom if it was OK that to pray that God punishes her father, but I guess there are no real answers!
Anyhow, I am completely shocked and now yet again I am at the mercy of God! I pray someday soon God hears my cries!
In Agony,
Bri
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