Love, Full Circle!

Vegas was so WONDERFUL! Ryan was the way he was when we first met and even more! He waited and held his hand out for me and wouldn't walk unless we were holding hands! He was always telling me how beautiful I was though I was pregnant and he even took me in his arms when other men looked at me! This is what real love is! I honestly didn't care what we did as long as we were together! This is the man I'd been waiting for! The man I met on the phone a few months back, the man that stole my heart! And I didn't even care that we didn't get married. I was a little bummed but I was just happy being with him! We were a couple once again! And I for the first time in my life really knew now that I could be anywhere and be anything when I was with him! I loved Ryan! And I couldn't wait to have his baby! This is my life! Happy and for the first time, complete!

Off and On Again

Well as time went on, Ryan for some reason decided he could no longer marry me, yet we remained great friends and he was even my best friend. He always gave me hope though saying you never know, someday we may get married! He really broke my heart, yet I loved him enough to continue to be his friend.

Then one day, we saw the baby's heartbeat and he had tears in his eyes and from that day on he was amazing again! He said that he was happy yet again and that he'd call all the time and he'd even tell me I am beautiful daily! He really gave me a new hope and even said you never know we may get married in Vegas! I told him not to tease and that wasn't nice! He said he didn't know! So I was happy once again!

We leave for Vegas tomorrow! I am so excited! I am going with the love of my life!