What is Normality? My Norm

What is normality? Each person can define it as something different. Because in, life what may be normal to one person may seem weird to another. So here is my life now. The norm

Last night I lay awake all night because Isabella had her shots and could not sleep unless she was resting on my chest. So, I got no sleep. So, then I start to think back on my life. Here is what was and what is.

Looking back I have to say somewhere this past year I kissed the "single" life or what was my life away. No, not because I was pregnant, but I think it was over the past months especially that I really have changed. Some may say for the better, while others say no way! Well, gone is that gal that use to really care what others thought. I'm no longer 23 and spontaneous! My idea of that is going out on a date with a guy I hadn't seen in months, hoping things hadn't changed too much, well besides the fact that now instead of having a baby inside of me it is outside of me! LOL!

Seriously though. I look at my closet of what was. Old cute outfits lay untouched for months some for a year now. Now I just feel like pulling on an old comfortable pair of jeans and loose sweatshirt with some sneakers. Instead of having sparkling outfits covered in just the right amount of perfume, my newest attire by the end of the day consists of some baby spit-up, spilled chocolate milk, and dirt. Can you guess from whom? You got it the kids! Usually it's Mike that spills and Alexis who gets hurt outside. So mom to the rescue, not caring anymore that my once fresh outfit will be destroyed! My blonde curly hair usually is frizzy by the end of the day because little Izzy loves to pull it! I am lucky if makeup makes it to my face once a week! The closest thing that crosses me face most days is a lil lipgloss. I'm lucky when mascara graces my eyelashes! If I do my makeup it when I have 2 extra minutes at school before I run in to class.

What replaces my friends laughs are those of the children. Instead of going out to a bar or dance club catching up on the latest gossip and sleeping in on Saturdays until 10, Are nights filled with the kid's activities, dinner, prayers and good night kisses! Then off to bed myself from the sheer exhaustion of the day! Saturday mornings I'm up with the sun as the kid's always have a game in some sport. Right now it's 9AM basketball games.

In school, I no longer talk to the "hot" guys, rather look for the smart ones, and become friends with them. I care more about A's than a date or a casual flirting during class! I go from taking classes like theater to classes like physics. Most days I slide into my seat right before the teacher calls my name, and of course they all know me, because I am the only white blonde in the classes!

Parties are out of the question these days unless they are birthday parties. Which of course I have had some complaints as I use to host some pretty off the hook parties! Now I am glad to be sitting down to dining at nicer restaurants. Even if it means eating an orange blood salad! LOL! Those of you who know me know the story!

Yes, life has changed. I've grown up quite a bit. Gone is the girl who loved to party and is replaced with a mom whose kids are her world! Maybe life isn't supposed to always stay the same. Change is good! And kids force you to change. At least those who have matured enough to know when it is time to grow up!

Some say I am still indecisive and sure that is probably true on some accounts, but I also know what I want. It is a life of love with the kids. I don't want to miss them growing up, so this is my norm! It took a LOT to get me to this point.

I never thought I'd see the day come. And it came and went and I no longer care. The past, my past is done. Isabella, is a blessing and just as much loved as the other two regardless how she was conceived. Well, thought I'd write. I have so much more on my mind, but well, it's time to actually study! So, what's your norm? Have you grown up yet and become the person God wants you to be?

Love you all,

Bri