Hi! Well still pregnant, but it's not been fun! I haven't been able to eat in 2 or 3 days. But because I have too much amniotic fluid, she doesn't want to come now, even though the contractions are very intense.
My whole left arm from my shoulder down to my fingertips are in pain, and going numb. It's probably from the fall cuz it's a constant pain now. I realized this morning after a night of tears that I will never be able to really write again if it doesn't get fixed. So, school is not going to be an option any longer. I am scared cuz I don't know what I am going to do if I make it. I won't even be able to hold the baby cuz I may drop her. My hand shakes just combing my hair. I wonder what God is doing and why He is allowing problem after problem happen.
And as of now I guess Ryan won't be in the baby's life yet again. He won't even be at the birth now. He said he'd go because he respects me, but I dont want him there because he doesn't want to be there. I have no idea what happened because we went from being ok and talking to him pulling this again. So I give up. I'd rather just do it alone.
So, there is no good news to report today. I've been crying since yesterday and now I just want to have her.
This sad girls life
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