Deceived

Have you ever felt deceived by someone? What I am talking about, you thought you knew them. I mean really knew them only to find out who they were or portrayed to be was a complete lie. Sometimes this betrayal can cut to the core and other times you think well geez it's good thing I didn't completely trust them. You have that feeling in your stomach as if something wasn't right? You just couldn't put your finger on it. Well that happened with me more recently.

I had this weird feeling about someone, and I kept telling myself, it'll go away with time. I even told myself, well maybe it's because I am just really guarded after all the betrayal I had just gone through. . . But no. It still was there and it grew. I figured OK, I gotta give this person a chance. Maybe I was being a hypocrite and it wasn't them. So I did. And I won't say what happened or why but boy was it a complete eye opener as well as a confirmation to that feeling that lingered. I finally told them I couldn't be around them any longer. The day I told them that, that night I got a phone call telling me to check up on that person. That I was in for a real shock. What I found out was not only appalling but the character of this person was outright disgusting. I was not shocked though for some reason. I knew that something wasn't right. When I heard that they went to a strip club to do business with their "clients" I thought, geez I want as far away as possible from them. Talk about unethical. If you don't have morals, you still should have ethics and the law in which you should abide by.

I've always given people the benefit of the doubt, but once they cross that line, I will never trust them again. I will not even associate with them. I am careful with what kind of company I keep! Call me crazy but I am not about to get involved with those kind of people.

Now I have had several opportunities to be very unethical. I have been offered hundreds of dollars for "happy endings." I felt disgusted. I don't go to their work and ask for "favors." If they want that call a prostitute. I could easily rake in the cash and have more than enough money to do whatever I wanted right now. But I can't and won't lower myself to such filth. Maybe that's a reason I hate the business now. Anyhow, all I have to say is just be careful in whom you spend your time with. Even if it's just on the phone. Trust your instincts. Trust me, as good as they may make you feel you're worth more than empty words and promises. This goes for guys too! Don't lower yourself or your standards just because you "Feel Lonely. That's all I have to say on the subject.

Still Disgusted,

Bri