The Good Life!

Hey! So life is good lately! Well besides recovering from everything, which my doc said will take some time! I was finally released to go to school again, so I am really excited!

We've been living in Bremerton because well our house is being torn apart with demolition! And it's been a nice break away from all the chaos! Izzy and I have just been chillin lately, cuz the other two are with their daddy this weekend!! She has been sleeping through the night lately and it makes me so happy! I feel refreshed and alive again for the first time!

This morning Izzy and I shared play time with lots of grins and even her first giggle! I was so excited! My lil baby girl is starting to laugh and coo and talk to me! She is growing so quickly! She even sucks her thumb every now and then when she finds it! She is definitely my lil sunshine and she brings me so much joy, thus her middle name! Her eyes are still blue and slowly turning brown! Her hair is blonde still but has some brown in it now! She's 21 and 1/2 inches and a lil over 8 pounds! She's so petite and she'll be 6 weeks tomorrow! Boy does time really fly! It's been so amazing and every day I look at her, every smile we share, I see so much beauty! I truly am blessed and she is a blessing! I thank God for her a million times a day and told her mommy's always wanted her! Her lil personality is so bright and sweet! She gets so excited at the littlest things and now when she hears my voice her eyes light up and she turns to look for me! There is nothing quite like that of having your lil baby know only you as her world! And I am her entire world! Today we started having tummy time! Though the ironic thing is she loves her tummy time! She is pushing up and looking around! I can't imagine even one day without her. I miss her for even a brief time if I run somewhere and have my parents watch her. It's so weird cuz I prefer to take her with me everywhere! I can't imagine leaving her ever!

So yeah, life has been amazing, wonderful and great! It couldn't be better right now! God is amazing and no matter what is thrown at me, I will be able to handle it, cuz I am back to being me! I learned in a bible study that I use to do with Tammy and JoL through Captivating that I am a strong, confident, woman and I only need God to validate my true self worth! I know I am a beautiful woman that He has made! And someday, He'll unite me with that amazing man He has just for me! And someday, the kids and I will have our happily ever after! LOL! But for now I am truly happy!

Life never is what we expect it! But that's the beauty of it! I still find joy in the small things such as watching the kids play basketball! I am trying to teach Alexis that you bounce a ball not kick it! And Mike is learning to swim without help! He and I talked about surfing! He wants to surf at the age of 9! So I told him we have to continue swimming! He is so funny because he wants to do something while Lexi is in ballet and I said he could do gymnastics and he said "mommy that's for girls!" LOL! He sure is funny! I love all of my kids! They are my life! They are growing so quickly!

Well that's life right now! I am just so filled with a happiness and a calmness! My life definitely has not turned out as I wanted it or expected it, but hey, It only makes me stronger. I mean I never wanted or expected to be a single mom of 3, but the Lord saw this day before He made the world, and He saw my heart and he knew how much I could handle! I suppose that all the hurt I've gone through in life has really made me stronger. I guess the only way to learn is by getting hurt, hu? This doesn't mean I'm closed to really loving again someday, though! Some day there really will be a man that will love me as I love him! And he'll love all my kids! And as for now, when that day does come, and I am still the only one in Izzy's life, maybe he'll adopt her. I can't say as of now what will happen though. But, I do know that no one, no man, will define who I am or what I am worth!

So all, I hope you are having a great weekend! I hope life is going well! And guess what? Izzy and I are doing just fine together! I look into her eyes and know we'll be just fine even if it is just us and her siblings! Well I better go, it's time to feel my little bundle of joy! She just woke up and her lil bright blue eyes are staring expectantly into mine!

Lovin Life,

Bri