Worn Out

Hi all! OK, yes, I would love your prayers for my precious baby girl! Life has been a little overwhelming the past few days. She got sick and between that and all the appointments and the the two others I am drained. Yesterday alone I had 6 appointments back to back. And it wasn't fun with driving in the snow from Bremerton to Lakewood!

I feel so helpless trying to care for baby Izzy! I myself am definitely undergoing postpartum trauma to my body. The doctor's aren't sure why I started to hemorrhage almost 6 weeks later, but I am. Not a fun thing. So trying to fix my and take care of Izzy on my own has been more than exhausting. As the saying goes when it rains it pours.

Then I start crying cuz I feel so overwhelmed doing it all on my own and my thought wander back to the things that were said to me. Such as it will be better if I give her up 4 adoption because she needs both a mommy and daddy who love her and are there 4 her. Not just a mommy who loves her. Cuz maybe they are right and having just a mommy who loves you is not enough. Especially when my kids start asking questions. I just feel so helpless in all of this.

So prayer. I definitely could use some of that. Cuz at times like this I feel as if I am not good enough of a mother and like giving up. I just wish I did have someone to lean on and talk to when my daughter is sick.

Exhausted,

Bri