A Writer's Masterpiece. Life as it unfolds!

Hi All! This is a forewarning. This is going to be a very short post. I am extremely exhausted to the point where my eyes are burning and I can barely see, so if there are any misspelled words or the like of leaving out words, that is my disclaimer as i am practically typing blind.

I have decided to try and keep as much baby stuff and whatnot to this blog. It is after-all a blog on life. My life. So it may be a little more detailed with what is going on. Yes, it did originally start out as a blog about Ryan and my life, but given that he's in and out of it, mostly out of it, it is now about life in general. The good, the bad, the laughter and joy, the tears and the pain!

Secondly, I have started writing a novel, or perhaps and autobiography about my life. The one that I am currently writing starts with the story of Ryan and I. However, there are very few details left out and it is not for children to read. If it were a movie it'd be rated R for content. Yes, my life isn't a G or even PG movie. I sometimes wish it were because it'd have a very happy ending, but then there would be no real passion, no hate, no tears, and definitely no love that would create a baby. Now mind you, If my life were a movie, it'd be one where the scenes were definitely always changing. What you expect to read, you won't and what you won't expect to read, you will. As with any book of value, to go into intimate detail while describing something is what paints the picture. That is why this story is NOT for children. However, I know that I have to start writing my life in a sequel of novels. The funny thing is many people throughout my life have told me I was to write and now I finally am starting. I have always been a writer by nature and if I weren't going to be some medical person, I'd live by the pen so to speak. But unfortunately I have mouths to feed besides my own, so this is in my very spare time. As it may take years to complete! Every character in my stories are true. However to protect the privacy of some, I have changed their names. So, in given this, I promise to give my friends the website that I will be writing it on. So, if they so choose to read it as I write, they may. But once I am finished, I will make hard cover and take it to a publisher I know. I will always have the original writings on me and copy written as I have actually had a few of my songs stolen from me in the past as people have tried to publish them as their own. That is why I will NEVER put my music profile up again. Anyhow, for those of you who do know me and don't want to know the intimate details of things, I suggest you skip chapters or not bother reading it. LOL! Like I said once I have everything set up, I will then give you all the site. The hardest thing and longest thing for an author is to copy everything you've written manually and put it into type. There have been days and sometimes months where I write and then reread it and throw it out. Or I edit the whole thing until it no longer even resembled what I said in the first 5 drafts! So, just remember as you read, you may judge a book by it's cover or rather in this case a person, but you have to remember this. How many of you can say you've lived a life worth living and have written about it! I know it will be judged and judged harshly by my friends and family but on that note, it'll only make me a better writer.

As some may know i was published a few times back in high school for short stories that were based on real life. I have also won many awards for my poetry and am published withing the poet world as well. For the past 3 years I've won best poetess of the year award for different works. All written from real life. If one writes, I believe it should come from real life! My music, all of it is inspired my the people in my life and a lot of it comes from my poetry.

No, I may not be fighting dragons or making spells of saving lives, but I do know that my life, my stories, my diaries I have kept since I was 10 will touch people.

I plan on writing about the story of my first real missions trip and how I almost died, after this. I recently found books I'd written when I was in the 4th grade! LOL! Someday, I will rewrite them for children. But for now, you'll have to deal with not hearing too much from me on here and if you want real life stuff, then here's the place to read it, and in a few days/weeks, you can read about passion, lust, romance, fighting, and the gory stuff that people try to forget!

OK so it wasn't so short. What can I say, I truly am a writer and God gave me the gift of writing! My mom even has mentioned to me several times, tonight included, that I should just be a famous writer. She said I'd be well published. Yes, I must confess, English is the easiest subject for me! Though I may be a horrific speller, some of the best writers of all times can't spell! And yes, I can and always have been able to write a paper in a night with no rough draft and still get a 100. Everyone is good at something and gifted in some way, I finally found my gifting in writing!

No it is not titled as of yet, because frankly I don't know how Ryan and my life will end. I may end this novel with the birth of our daughter. But mind you, though it starts from Ryan and my first letters to each other, it does contain other men and women in it. Just a forewarning!

Well, so now my eyes are on fire so I must retire them to what Ryan calls sleepy time!

So good night, and farewell for now my loved ones! And stay tuned for the story coming soon!

This tired yet passionate gal!