I'm So Excited!

Hi! We just got back from camping late this afternoon! It was a blast! I'll write about it later, since I am so exhausted!

But I wanted to say, wow! I can't believe I am already 5 months pregnant! Where did the time go? Yes, I am still due on Christmas morning!

Ryan and I will find out Friday what the sex of our baby is! We talked about it last Friday and are both excited! We got a chance to discuss a lot of things actually and it was a good conversation. The best one we've had in a few months. It's like we were old friends again! He said he won't be disappointed if it's a girl which is a HUGE relief! But I still think we both want a boy. But whatever it is we both will love!

We aren't where we use to be, but at least we are talking and whatnot again which is great because our baby will need that! I don't want any tension between he and I like there is with most people who have a child together and aren't together any longer. As of now I know that things won't change as far as us ever getting back together again. But I do still care and will be there for him when he needs me to be.

He plans on being there when our child is born which I am so grateful for. I am going to ask if he wants to cut the umbilical cord after the appointment Friday. I still hope that he plays a huge part in the baby's life regardless of what happens between us. I had a few men just recently ask if we ended up together if they could adopt it as their child. Of course I will not allow this. I will never take that right away from Ryan, regardless. He truly is a great daddy! When his daughter was born, he was the one up all night with her feeding her and changing her and rocking her. He has always loved his daughter, and I can only hope he is the same with our child! But time will tell. He still has a lot of decisions and choices to make though!

Until then, I am SO excited! I can't wait until the ultrasound this Friday! Just thought I'd share!

Love you all!

Bri