Hi! So, I am exhausted as usual! But what's new? LOL! Anyhow, looking back on the decisions I did make, I am so glad that things with David really are over. Yes, while it was nice to be treated like a woman of value he also looked down upon those who weren't making money like him. When I said that I was debating on just getting my nursing degree, he said so you're only going to be just a a nurse. He looked down upon that. He also didn't want Ryan in any part of Izzy's life. While Ryan and I may not be talking, who knows what's going on, he still has the right to see her if he wants to.
Well actually I am really torn. Yes, David is right and Ryan may have have a ton of woman around. And I don't want Izzy around all of them. So, I am torn. What am I supposed to do? I want him in her life but only if he cleans it up.
I am so torn about what to do. Well at least time will tell. As David says. I have 3 and 1/2 months max to see what he will decide. But that does not mean I will wait around for him.
School is good. Philosophy may be cool or boring. I am not sure yet. I couldn't really concentrate because the guy who sat down next to me reeked of cigarette smoke and pot! My did I have a headache! : (
Well, I am going to go lay down. I will write later if there is something on my mind. Tomorrow I have a very long day! I have chem and bio back to back, with both of their labs and discussions! Yawn! I have classes from 8-5! Only an hour break! HMMM! Will I survive? With this baby determined to come early, we shall see. I am not sure how I will be able to handle her being in the neonatal unit and studying. I will be so overwhelmed and exhausted. I am not even sure Ryan will be around for it!
And yes, I do believe that in time, God's time that I will once again be happy and finally be with a man of my dreams! I may not have even met him yet! LOL! OH Well!
So, good night for now!
Bri
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