Indifferent

Hi all! Not much has changed. I'll be 25 weeks in 2 days, and that is better than the 24 weeks that I am currently.

Izzy isn't moving as much, but I have been to busy to really pay attention, because of school. As far as Ryan and I go. . . Well same o, same o. I don't think things will ever change. I wish they would, as I still love him, but what do I expect these days? Nothing any longer. When someone says they need time to figure everything out and then are kissing another woman a week later, what am I supposed to think/feel? Yes my heart broke yet again. I just wish Izzy was here and that I knew what I am to do.

I have come to the thoughts this weekend, as I told my best friend, that if we don't end up together, and if he is still with other women, I will walk away permanently with Izzy. I won't be able to bear seeing him with other women, and I DON'T want my daughter knowing any other woman. Is that wrong? Who knows. All I have to say is that if you're not married don't get pregnant. Seriously. All you end up with is heartbreak. And it's not fair to the child. What am I supposed to tell Izzy? That her dad walked away because he'd rather have been with another woman than his own daughter? HMM. . . That is going to break my heart when I have to tell her why daddy is never around.

So that's the life. As sucky as it is, it's what's real these days.

Indifferent,

Bri