Hi! Me again. Well Things seem to be a little better. Well while Ry no longer wants me he promised to at least be at Izzy's birth! That makes me so thankful as I feel so alone in all of this. Last night he said let him know what's happening no matter what. I will. But I will not call him until I am in active labor. I am just still so afraid he still won't show and I will still be so very alone. I guess only God will know the truth. Please pray he's there. Izzy and I both need him there. I know he and I will never be now because he chose to walk away, walk away from me loving him. who knows why? Perhaps he's afraid? Perhaps his family? If he had followed his heart without listening to everyone else he and I would still be very happy together. But it seems impossible these days! What is one to do when the love of her life walks away? Will he really want his daughter if I make it through delivery? Will he want her if I do decide to keep her? What will happen? I guess there are so many uncertainties. I wish God would give me the love of my life back. But I'm not sure I believe in miracles for my life any longer.
Well no matter what, Ry will be a great dad if he does stick around for her no matter what!
questioning,
Bri
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