30 Weeks! Gotta laugh!

So, 30 weeks! It's a miracle! I am so excited and relieved! It's so wonderful that Izzy has stayed in this long! Of course with medical intervention! But I am so thankful that Izzy is still in there! I don't care about the pain, because I want her to be healthy! I want her to not have to go to the NICU and I want to take her home with me, granted I get to go home! So I thank God for all the goodness He's given me. Sure things could be better, but they could also be way worse!

The funny thing is that I got an anonymous comment that was pretty rude. I just laughed because if they have to say things without identifying themselves they obviously don't have a clue of what is going on. So to answer the "anonymous" person, you have NO idea what's going on. Seriously. And no, no child NEEDS a dad that does not want them in the first place. A male plays a role in a child's life, to a degree. But when a father doesn't want his baby it's worse to try and make him have a relationship with them. I am NOT going to be with someone just because. The kids and I both deserve to be loved and wanted. I will NOT settle for anything less. It doesn't mean I don't love the father, but I know that I AM good enough for him. And it's his loss to walk away from all of us.

My life does NOT nor will it revolve around men. My kids, my family, God and my education are what matter. Someday God will bring me and them someone who will love us all and accept us as we are. And I will wait. I love my kids! They are what matter to me! I was so proud that Mike passed his swim class! He was so excited! We're still working on lil Lexi Not being afraid to jump to the instructors with no hands! She'll eventually do it in her own time!

So there are blessings despite it all! So if you seriously have rude comments think twice because it doesn't bother me, it makes me laugh! And honestly who are you to judge others anyhow? I'd say look at your own life before getting on a high horse! and if you seriously have the time to read what I write and don't like it, don't read it. That's all I have to say. I know God is my judge and the only one aloud to!

Anyhow, I am relieved to have made it to 30 weeks even if I do deliver tonight! And God will give me the strength to carry on and do it even if no one is there!

Smiling through it all!

Bri