What do I do?

So, as the day goes on, it becomes a realization that now that I told Ry that I would no longer contact him in any form, it is hard knowing that I am going to be having Isabella completely alone. I suppose that is how it is suppose to be? I know her birth will be a mix a joy and sadness. While I want to have her now and just get it over with, I want her to be healthy so I want her to wait for at least 5 or 6 more weeks. I guess God knows everything and what is going to happen. I guess He knows that I was going to be in this alone. I realize I will be raising her without a dad. It's not like my other 2. They get to see their father. But Ryan has decided that because of me, she is also not wanted or welcomed in his life. So anyhow, that's my realization. But Ryan has made it clear that he does not ever want to see me again.:(

How am I suppose to explain this to Izzy? How am I suppose to tell her her dad does not want her? How am I suppose to break my baby girl's heart?

Do I show her pictures of him or talk about him or completely leave him out of her life? I am so confused. I have no clue on what to do.

Still in Shock over it all,

Me