What will happen?

So let me ask. . . If I have been in and out of active labor because they keep stopping it, how do I absolutely know when to go in again? They said when my water gushes, but if that doesn't happen? SInce the contractions are hard to even breath through, how long do I actually wait? Do I wait until every Friday appt and then they tell me they are going to deliver? Or do I wait until I possibly pass out? It'd be way easier to do this if I were full term and they didn't stop it every time! So now I am not even sure when is the time? With Michael they had to break my water 3 times! Yes, 3! It kept resealing! So, with Izzy, I don't even know now. I guess if I feel her move at least 10 times in an hour even though the contractions come every 1-6 minutes aoart and last from 30-90 seconds it's OK? I thought I was an old vetran when it came to all of this! I feel like I know nothing! LOL! All I know is the pain these days! Geez! I still have so much to do! I still have so much to get! I don't really have anything! A few clothes, an old crib and changing table and that is it! I still have to buy the car seat, stroller, bedding, etc. I feel so overwhelmed! And with having a c-section when it finally happens, they think because of the complications already, I will have to be in the hospital for at least 5 days. Izzy of course will be in for at least 2 months they said, and that is if she makes it. Despite all the pain, I hope she can wait at least 1 1/2 more weeks and make it to 32! Everything is in God's hands now! I don't want to have her this week anyhow, cuz Ry will be out of town for the week! I don't want to go into surgery alone! : ( But if I have to, I do.