I'm sorry

Hi! As I was doing my devotions tonight and I asked God to show me any area of my heart were I had sinned. He gently told me that I had not spoken good of Ryan in a sense. I fell on my face and repented and asked God for His forgiveness because as much as Ryan has hurt me and the children He is still God's child and deserves to be treated with love and compassion no matter the fault or offense. God reminded me to be filled with His love. So, I am working on that as hard as it is. It is hard when you are suffering and paying for loving someone unconditionally and yet God has told me to continue to love Ryan as He loves him. HMMM. . .


So, to all of you, I want to publicly apologize for saying anything bad about Ryan. If I have said anything to defame him or slander him or his name in any way, I want to say that I really am sorry and hope you will forgive me.

It's definitely not easy to apologize for things, let alone for not speaking the best of terms about someone who has so deeply hurt and wronged me. Yet, no matter what has happened, he deserves to maintain his reputation and dignity. So for that, if I in any way have torn that down or dishonored him in public, I can only ask for forgiveness. He is the father of my child and regardless, I must always honor him and not let him loose face in public. I must defend him and his name because that is what a godly woman would do. Regardless that I am not his wife, I will still honor him and defend him. After all I do with my family and friends when I talk to them, so I why dishonor him in any other way? I truly am trying to live my life as Christ has called me to live so from now on I will try to only say good things about him. And regardless of what happens and regardless if he chooses not to love this child of his and not be a part of it's life, he is still the best father to his littler girl. He is very loving, caring and I would never have chosen a better father for my child. Because I know how much he cares and loves his children and how very devoted he is. So, again, I am sorry and want to apologize to all!

From my heart,

Bri